Oddly enough, the Patron’s Daughter never admitted to rejection.
She spoke of the Noble Son every day, her tone peevish as she complained of his desertion. That was how she thought of his going home without asking her to marry him.
She mourned the loss of pride and the embarrassment her family endured.
She never expressed any longing for the Noble Son, or heartbreak that he hadn’t returned her affection. She was furious that a man she would have willingly married hadn’t wanted to marry her.
As the Patron’s Daughter complained to me daily, I learned that the lamented loss she suffered was her reputation of perfect unattainability.
As the man who didn’t care to succeed where so many men had failed, the Patron’s Daughter was obsessed with marrying the Noble Son simply to regain her cherished sense of self.
I was disgusted.
And of course, I had moments of malice. I relished that poison coursing through me as I listened to the frets and grievances of the Patron’s Daughter.
Yet, getting to know her had a bizarre effect on me.
Of course, I didn’t like her any better. The Patron’s Daughter was everything I’d always thought her to be.
Being in her confidence, I discovered how vapid she was. She lacked intelligence as well as common sense.
Not only did I understand why the Noble Son “abandoned” her, as she put it, I marveled that she had actually spurned so many suitors before him.
As beautiful as she was to look at, the Patron’s Daughter was an irritating, tedious bore. Once I knew that, it was impossible to envy her.
Listening to her, I also learned about the perils of vanity. The wisdom of that awareness would be invaluable to my future.
In the Life, I never fell into the pitfalls of lavish praise most women are vulnerable to. I enjoyed and received the ridiculous compliments that came my way, but I never took flattery seriously. As the years passed, I would witness the fall of several beautiful and even talented courtesans simply because vanity had been their weakness.
To return to the Patron’s Daughter, she made it easy for me to betray her since she was always rather horrid to me during our walks and talks.
As the Sorcerer had said, I didn’t matter enough for hatred. And I was too unimportant for courtesy as well.
Once the shock of rejection had worn off, her self-pity became anger, and I was the sack of meal she chose to pound on.
She never laid a hand on me physically, but the Patron’s Daughter was snide and insulting, and it galled me to tolerate these personal assaults.
So many times, I drew blood from my tongue restraining the urge to say what I really thought.
Instead, I clucked like a chicken full of sympathetic noises like a groveling handmaiden, and despised myself for it.
Every few days, the Sorcerer would appear out of nowhere.
He never asked questions, and he always suggested ways to increase her trust.
After one particularly vexing walk, I was in no mood for fresh ideas to get closer to the Patron’s Daughter.