Higher Learning
/As reluctant as I was to stay on at the Courtesan Casa, it surprised me how readily I fell into a rhythm of life there.
Adrianna said she needed a break from continuing the story of the Patron’s Daughter and the Brute, and she took that break. A couple of weeks passed with none of her vivid storytelling at night.
At first, I was disappointed to have the exciting tale interrupted.
But ultimately, I was thankful to have the time to get to know Adrianna as a woman and as a friend.
It refreshed me to see her as something other than the angry young peasant she had once been, or the glamorous and larger-than-life Courtesan she became.
I met her every morning and most evenings in the theater.
While she danced, I drew rough sketches of Adrianna. Yet I joined her for the stretching and meditation.
She was a patient teacher as she walked me through the strange poses that I could not get into as far as she could. But I loved the buoyancy in my body after the exercises were done.
No wonder Adrianna always began her dance this way. But oftentimes, she would finish off her dance with stretching that segued to meditation.
I savored that peace and stillness that came from closing my eyes to be fully present inside myself. I even craved it. That inner space brought me back to the harmony of roaming outside with the sheep.
Courtesan Casa was an utterly fascinating place. Yet it was also foreign to me.
People were around all the time, every day, and I missed solitude. I missed being outside with my flock.
Those moments of stillness in the theater brought me as close to that serenity as I was going to get in the bustle and liveliness of the Casa.
After the morning routine was over, Adrianna and I would enjoy a leisurely breakfast. Sometimes we chatted, but oftentimes we ate in silence until the Butler came and read the paper to her.
Of course, I could have read to her, and used the various stories for her reading lessons.
But this had been a ritual between Adrianna and the Butler for so long, I didn’t wish to interrupt. Once he finished, the Butler left the paper with me.
Then the instruction in reading and writing began.
At first, the servants were dismissed. Yet after a few days, everybody figured out what was going on, and Adrianna relaxed enough to let her household see her vulnerable as she learned to read and write.
It made things easier because on those days when Adrianna didn’t have evening engagements, the lessons lasted several hours.
It was very pleasant to have refreshments coming as needed. Study required a lot of concentration, and it was incredible how often we both wanted to snack while working.
As I suspected, Adrianna had an excellent mind. She was even quicker to learn than I thought she would be.
It was far easier to teach her, Wanderer, than it had been to teach you. To be fair, I think it helped that I taught her reading and writing simultaneously.
But Adrianna was blessed with a raw, natural intelligence, more than I ever had, and probably more than you.
I began with the alphabet.
I wrote it out, and made her practice drawing the letters while I sounded them out. Like the governess who had taught me, I used phonetics, how letters and consonants sounded when linked together, using words out of the newspaper as examples.
Writing was challenging for her.
But she mastered the sounds of the alphabet within days. Once she made those connections, Adrianna picked up reading so fast it unnerved me to no end.
Instructing her was a pleasure.
Her concentration was formidable.
Her large golden eyes blazed as she watched and listened. I had never seen more absolute focus than I saw in Adrianna.
As usual, her beauty took my breath away.
It didn’t help that Adrianna was as flirtatious as ever during our lessons.
Somehow, she always found something to inspire a knowing grin, an impertinent wink, and that unnerving manner of laughing she had, out loud with her head thrown back.
At least a couple of times per lesson, I lost my composure and my train of thought, which inspired more grins, winks, and laughter.
But her patience with herself gave me pause.
Even though Adrianna was patient with her servants, her protégées, her strongmen, and her prodigies, most gifted people I’ve known were seldom kind to themselves.
I’ve always seen it as a perverse form of vanity. Painful expression of vanity, of course, but as driven as she was, I expected Adrianna to pressure herself to excel.
We all grew up with the fable on pride about the tortoise and the hare. Although the hare was a much faster animal, it was the tortoise that won the race.
I expected Adrianna to have the speed of the hare, along with the pride that went with it. I was agreeably surprised to see she paced herself more like the tortoise. She plodded along, rather than sprinted.
This was especially apparent as she struggled to write the words she understood and read so easily.
Bent over the paper, she painstakingly took her time with her letters and script, flicking her eyes to the alphabet and mouthing the words slowly to figure out which letters she needed for which words. Her spelling was atrocious, but she kept at writing with steady determination.
If Adrianna ever suffered a moment’s frustration, I saw little proof of it. This disciplined humility was a most welcome and pleasurable surprise.
That quality was what made me like Adrianna.
During this time, I realized I liked her quite a lot.
I actually forgot all about the Patron’s Daughter and the Brute during this respite that I enjoyed so much.
Yes, Wanderer, I promise to teach you how to write in due time.
To return to the story, this fresh source of esteem made it impossible for me to deny the desire Adrianna inspired in me.
I figured that would get your attention, Wanderer, and I will get there in due course.
9 Original Fantasy Writing Prompts!
/Here are some writing prompts for May. Most are fantasy. All are original. Hope these work to spark the magic of inspiration!
Enjoy!
If you’d like to see more original writing prompts from Free Flying Press, click here.
Wanna Feel Better? Then Love on Yourself!
/Joy is juice. Pleasure is the nectar that keeps us going.
Yet there are lots of excellent reasons to feel like f***ing s*** these days. And feeling like crud is bad for writers. It blocks us from flowing when we really need to keep going.
Getting dumped; getting fired (another kind of dumped); losing your friend group in a break up (yet another kind of dumped); fights with anybody important to you — family/partner/spouse/offspring/sibling/co-worker; toxic work environment; narcissistic anything and narcissists everywhere; asking somebody out only to get turned down; asking somebody out who only strings you along without a clean and honest rejection; one-sided friendships; moving to a new place where you know nobody and the culture is not friendly; realizing that the good buddy you lent money to will never pay you back; getting into a car accident; lousy customer service; deliberate rudeness…this list could go on for eternity.
Unfortunately, there is an abundance of unkindness in the world. People treat each other with disrespect all the time, and many of us are stressed and unhappy as a result.
That being the case, can we always rely on outside sources — like supportive friends and healthy relationships — for our contentment and happiness?
In my opinion, the answer is no. We need to get really, really good at filling our own wells.
How do we do that?
Again, this is an opinion: we can do that through the pursuit of pleasure, particularly the kinds that bring us to joy.
This may sound frivolous to some. Pleasure is dessert, not dinner.
And can we honestly say that the concept of joy receives the cultural respect it deserves? I came across a Ted Talk that addresses this topic, which I’ll post at the end of this article — because I want you to finish reading this. Of course.
Pleasure is extremely important. I think it’s far more crucial than people want to admit.
Stop and think about those stellar moments, when you feel amazing and your being is in a delicious state of lightness, when all your cares fall away, and you settle fully in the present. What comes not only to your mind, but to your heart?
Joy.
It doesn’t matter how you got there. What matters is that every single one of those pleasurable moments adds joy to your well, to your inner reserves that give you strength and resilience.
Those moments of pleasure remind you that life is worth living. So later, when one of the miseries strikes you, that nourishment will be there to sustain you.
Joy is juice. Pleasure is the nectar that keeps us going.
As we all know, loving, healthy relationships and true friends are the main source of juice and nectar.
But life happens. There are times when we don’t have that loving partner or our healthy friends are caught up in their own lives. Or both. Sometimes there’s nobody available to help you feel better.
These are the times to love on yourself.
Allow me to share a few of my go-to’s when it comes to bringing on the bliss. I’ll start with something simple.
Get thee to a waterfall.
I can’t encourage this enough. The powerful force of falling water does something to us on a cellular level. The negative hydrogen ions released from the splitting water molecules enter our bloodstream and increase our levels of serotonin — which relieves stress and depression.
Trust me. It works.
I’ve sat before a waterfall in a state of raging despair. When I left an hour or so later, no matter how devastated I was when I arrived, I left feeling serene.
My problems hadn’t gone away, but I wasn’t in a pretzel over them either.
Of course, not everybody can get to a waterfall readily without some kind of road trip involved. But if you can, do it.
If a waterfall is not readily available, any source of running water — such as rivers, creeks, or the ocean — will still be helpful. Even an indoor water fountain that makes that gurgling sound that’s agreeable to your ears will do some good.
Here’s another bliss blast that is not dependent on nature. This is not for the faint of heart. But damn, it works.
HOT Sauna followed with COLD plunge. Run HOT and COLD for several rounds.
Work up to this however you want.
Sauna for as long as you can stand it and submerge in a chill tub (I think this is far more powerful than a cold shower) for as many seconds as you can take it. Increase your time with each round. Take the heat until the sweat pours off of you, then immerse your torso, hands, feet, and head in a cold tub. The longer you do each, the more you get out of it.
Physically, this is amazing for lymphatic drainage. But emotionally, it pushes the ICK right out of you. It is impossible to feel depressed, anxious, or angry after going HOT and COLD for several rounds.
Once you get accustomed to this, you’ll find yourself craving the cold. You will find intense pleasure in the COLD the longer you stay in it.
The bliss is indescribable. You’re buzzing and floating and overwhelmed with well-being. You have to experience it for yourself to know how awesome it is.
And you’ll feel like a badass.
But there’s another juicy benefit of the practice of HOT Sauna followed with COLD Plunge.
Better Orgasms.
Which brings me to my last go-to.
Make love to yourself.
I mean that literally. What better way to love on yourself than to…well, really love on yourself?
I recommend this to everybody, even those with awesome sex lives with loving sweeties.
Who can truly be your own best lover more than you?
Use your imagination and get creative. There’s no excuse not to explore variety, because there are all kinds of books, methods, and sex toys to play with.
It’s win, Win, and WIN for anybody who takes the time and makes the effort.
Besides creating your own ecstasy with self-love and orgasms, masturbation will make you a better lover.
Beyond the obvious reasons of knowing your body and telling your inner shame monster to get lost, you’ll be more present in your body — not your head — the next time you have a lover in your bed.
So there you have some go-to’s for getting your bliss on. So get busy and love on yourself. You’ll feel better.
Oh, and wear bright colors. Click here that Ted Talk I mentioned earlier.
Flirting With Hypothermia, Part 4 - Healing Through Winter Swimming
/This is my second season of winter swimming.
I’m much tougher than I was last year 2020/2021. I’m able to stay in the cold far longer.
But that’s not even the least of it.
2021 was a motherfucker of a year.
Abandonment, betrayal, heartbreak, and even one death for good measure, 2021 was a year of grief. I lost my core people, my first tier relationships - my former roommate, my late brother’s best friend, a lover, and one of my favorite people.
It doesn’t matter that I made my choice to let go. All of it sucked.
We sure do live in interesting times. I’m hardly alone in this.
I find comfort that most people I know have also left behind close people. Because everybody is doing the friendship shuffle, it’s been fairly easy to restructure my community. Yet every relationship and friendship is unique in and of itself, and those connections can never be replaced. Loss still brings pain.
But through it all, the river is always there. Nothing forces me into the present moment with the immediacy of cold water immersion.
That got me through some of my worst moments of last year.
At the end of September, I found out that a friend who had always inspired deep respect, died suddenly from blood clots in her lungs.
The next day, I went to the river.
The water was not in the winter temps yet, but dropping fast. The cold was just enough to wear down the numbness of shock, leaving my heart free to ache. It hardly felt like relief, but it was necessary.
A couple of days after that, I cut ties with somebody I once considered my closest friend, somebody I had loved as if she had been my family. Our friendship had eroded slowly. Our connection didn’t survive the chaos of shifting values due to the pandemic, or the insidious influence of a needy relationship.
I believe friend breakups need more time to heal. Personally, I never thought this would happen with this friend, and there’s no one swim that will make that kind of heartbreak go away, no matter how excruciating the water is.
But each swim renews me a little more, as the cold river cleanses.
A few months after an acrimonious parting of the ways, I found out that my swim buddy and lover from my first season pretty much left me for somebody else. At the time of the split, she had made me out as the villain, because she hadn’t the backbone or courage to be honest. I couldn’t sleep at all that night after seeing pictures of her with the new girlfriend for whom she had declared her love a month after we had broken up.
The next day, I went to the river.
The season was late November. The water was in the upper 40’s, the temperature when the river really starts to hurt.
It would have been so easy to make excuses, to fall into apathy, depression, with hints of anguish and despair. It didn’t help that the river was a reminder of my ex-lover.
I had to force myself to go in.
As usual, I grimaced and groaned when I walked in to my waist. When I stuck my hands in, I probably cussed somewhere between a little and a lot.
I questioned my sanity when I finally dove under water to get fully submerged from head to toe. Then I gasped in desperation while trading off between breast stroke and side stroke, dunking my head under from time to time until I grew accustomed to the brain freeze.
As always, I thought the frantic panic would last forever. But it was only a few minutes before the torture was over, and I was in the here and now of that sliver of time.
On that late November evening, the sky had been overcast, and I had gone to the river around sundown. The sky was dark, but not yet black. I remember the planes flying low overhead right after take off from the nearby airport.
I remember thinking: I feel fucking amazing. I can do this, and she can’t. (My former swim buddy had been a weak swimmer.) This is MINE.
That shift to acclimation has always been a miracle. The instant the bitter cold of the water transformed into vicious pleasure, I was staggered yet again that I had been able to cross the threshold from agony to ecstasy.
That moment was pure grace.
There’s exquisite freedom to that. Freedom of choice. Knowing that I can bring myself to euphoria whenever I want - even after my heart takes a hard knock.
I can’t even go there about my late brother’s best friend. Suffice to say, it will be a long time before I can get past my enmity of him.
But I have the river. I will always have the river.
Wim Hof is right.
The cold is our friend. Relief for just about any pain can be found there.
Every time I bury myself in the freezing temperatures of a river that could kill me, I come out a little different.
After a betrayal, a death, a shock to my system, a break in my heart, I go swimming in the cold and the world disappears. I am reborn. Even if this release lasts only for those few moments, that counts. Those moments add up.
Today I am grateful.
I am grateful that 2021 is behind me. Really, who isn’t?
I am grateful for the cold water.
I’m sure as hell grateful that I kept swimming.
As I write this, it’s the 1st day of 2022. The water is about 38.75 degrees. It’s not as cold as the coldest day I shared with my ex-lover, but the season’s not over. We might get there yet.
But it’s the coldest water of this season thus far, and it’s definitely cold enough for the baptism of rebirth.
I’m meeting one of my favorite swim buddies for this, a new friendship that is very satisfying.
We crossed paths two weeks after I cut ties with my former roommate.
The season was mid-October. The Columbia had dropped below 60 degrees, and I had just finished a 40+ minute swim in 58 degree water. My body numb and my brain frozen, I had rushed to the truck to get changed as fast as I could.
A blonde woman had just gotten out of her car with her nephew.
“How’s the water?” she asked. “Gorgeous evening for a swim. I’m about to get in.”
I was so out of it, I could barely talk. I remember slurring my words as I answered – as one often does at the edge of hypothermia. The bliss of popping endorphins made me cheery, even though I only had a grace period of 5-10 minutes to get dressed.
The conversation was brief and the exchange of phone numbers immediate. She knew I didn’t have the bandwidth for conversation. She had been winter swimming for 5 years, and had a lot more experience at this than I did.
The old saying: “When one door closes, another opens” has never been more true for me than it had been in 2021. As I let go of old friends, I made new friends very easily.
True blessings I don’t take lightly.
I met a lot of nice folks last autumn while the water temps started their seasonal drop.
I also made new friends through other avenues, I’ve deepened my connections with friends I didn’t have enough of the time and energy needed to get closer. These friends are MUCH HEALTHIER in mind and body and heart, and thus, are far less problematic than the ones I had to leave behind.
This season is a different pleasure than the season last year. There is a lot less drama. Or no drama. The vibe is more relaxed, and these new connections have potential to sink deeper roots, and perhaps last over time.
Yet through all these changes, the river has been there. The water is always ready to cleanse me, freeze off the old skin of who I had been, so I can grow into who I will be. Who I want to be.
The first thought I awaken to on this first morning of 2022 is the awareness that I am a much stronger woman than I was on the first day of 2021.
That’s something to feel good about.
I’m ready to conquer that cold.
I’m ready to conquer myself.
If anybody would like to read Flirting With Hypothermia, Part 3, please click HERE.
Give Yourself Something to Write About - More Prompts!
/Well, those writing prompts…they just keep on coming! I’m fairly pleased with these, kind of nice to use photographs as inspiration. I hope you get much inspiration from these. Something for everybody, really.
There’s an erotic novel in here somewhere. What do you think? Should Narcissus and Vanity have a go at it?
“Tell me I’m pretty.”
Tired of Vanity’s never-ending demands, the mirror remained silent.
“Tell me I’m pretty!”
Vanity slapped her reflective surface.
The mirror cracked.
Vanity stopped and leaned in to embrace her reflection.
She was beautiful.
The Bridge of Serenity is always there for us.
Cross the Bridge into the realm, find a comfortable seat, take a few deep breaths, and ask yourself these questions:
“What does peace look like to me?”
“What brings me peace?”
When you’re ready, write down what you found inside yourself.
“I was not one of those personable peasant girls…No possibility of a fairy tale twist of fate for me.”
Claire surrenders to the water. She is filled up with air, but already the pressure squeezes her lungs. From the depths, she hears people screaming from the pier.
They think she jumped in for tragic reasons.
Nothing could further from the truth.
Claire waits for her lover to claim her.
What’s the best way to make friends with your shadow?
Go hang where your shadow is invisible.
In the darkness.
Follow the path into the deepest recesses of the tunnel of your mind.
Invite your shadow to join you and just listen.
Your shadow has a lot to say.
Got Writer's Block? Here, Have Some Writing Prompts!
/Writer’s block is such a bitch. Prevention is worth more than cure here, of course, and one of the best ways to prevent the dreaded writer’s block is to write your story ideas down as they come to tinker with them later.
But in case you didn’t do that, here are some prompts and story ideas that might get you rolling. One could be used as a journaling piece or memoir.
What do you think about doing a series of essays on your most embarrassing moments – those times we’d prefer to forget? I think the experience would be both humbling and liberating at the same time. It’s very empowering to embrace our human frailty.
At last, the people came back to worship.
Once enough people returned to the earth, to honor the mountains, the woods, the streams, and the seasons, the Mother returned and brought with her the Maiden and the Crone.
“Hail to the Resurrection of the Goddess, may the Feminine save us all!”
The Goddess yawned and stretched.
“It’s not that simple,” she replied. “Humanity must redeem themselves.”
When Cassandra woke up and saw the rose on the pillow next to her, elation flowed through her.
Then she saw the note underneath.
Instead of words of love and devotion after a beautiful night together, this was an epistle of desertion.
Seduced only to be abandoned.
Cassandra vowed revenge.
Embarrassing moments make great stories.
When was the last time you wanted to crawl under a rock and hide?
Why?
What’s the story?
Go.
“We only have 5 minutes!”
“So what do you want me to do about it?”
“Nothing! There’s nothing anybody can do about it!”
“And you’re telling me this why?”
Anne hesitated, then figured she had nothing to lose.
“Since we’re doomed no matter what, wanna make out?”
Imagine a world where the scaffold of shame made a comeback.
How would this happen?
What broken rules would result in this public display of disgrace?
How long would this punishment endure?
Who would be the hero or shero who would make this stop?
What would be their driving force?
In case these aren’t enough, there are plenty more prompts to be found here and here.
Enter the Benevolent Intruder
/The Patron found him in the garden he planted for his beloved before they wed.
He had created an Eden of her favorite flowers to welcome his bride home, surrounding the house with lilies in every size and color.
Narrow paths wove through the blooms; some were the color of wine, while others were golden and streaked with black, and still others blushed deep magenta. Pure white callas made regal sentinels that lined the path along the way to the pillars of the portico at the front door.
The garden of lilies became more splendid with every passing year after his wife died.
Their stalks grew taller and the bulbs thickened until the blooms were the largest he’d ever seen, perfuming the air with sweet musk as they opened.
The Vagabond came in early spring, just after the girl’s thirteenth birthday.
A light rain fell that morning, sun shining through clouds and drizzle, making ribbons of light and water over the house and garden when he saw the young man among the lilies. Dressed in patchwork clothes, with the heavy rucksack of a wanderer at his feet, his mouth was agape as he stared around the garden.
“I beg your pardon,” the Patron said, “but are you lost?”
“Not this time,” the stranger answered, turning in circles and shaking his head at the profusion of blooms growing taller than he. “But everybody’s a bit lost, don’t you think?”
His voice had the smooth texture of aged cognac, but he was a vagabond for certain. His command of language was that of a citizen, but his accent drawled of faraway places.
“Can’t say I’ve given the matter much thought,” the Patron replied.
The Vagabond faced him then and smiled.
His teeth were brilliant against his tan skin, golden brown eyes sparkling as he removed his worn hat. Instead of bowing to introduce himself, he leaned his head back to allow droplets of rain on his face. He closed his lids, the flares of his nose puckering from the long swallow of air.
“Smells like heaven here,” he sighed. “I’ve been just about everywhere, but I’ve never come across anything like this.”
“Is that what you’re doing here? Coming across something new?”
“No,” the Vagabond said, pulling his head up and peering at the Patron. “I’ve come to work and they tell me you have a more generous heart than most.”
“Did they? I guess that depends on what you can do.”
“I can do lots of things, but I like to work with horses whenever I can. I have a nice way with them.”
“Oh really?” the Patron said, cocking one brow.
“Yeah. Really.”
The Patron chuckled and shook his head, unable to resist the urge to lead the young man to the barn. He heard the gasp of his visitor and grinned, knowing the sudden change in smell from the garden to the sharp pungency of the stables shocked his senses.
But the Vagabond followed him to the last stall, whistling when he looked inside.
“What a beauty!”
“That he is,” said the Patron. “Still a colt and absolutely uncontrollable.”
His coat was deep gray and his mane and tail could have been spun from silver. The long strands cascaded along the curve of his neck and reached to the ground from his hindquarters. His torso had the same girth, his limbs the same length as most adult stallions.
The Vagabond tapped on the door to bring him closer.
But the colt stayed at the far side of the stall, looking at the visitor with one eye and snuffling.
“Think you could have a way with him?” the Patron asked.
“Sure.”
“Two of my best stable hands are unable to work for a month after trying to break him in. Both men have worked with horses since they could walk and you believe you can do better?”
“I know I can.”
“I don’t think so.”
The Patron beckoned the Vagabond to accompany him back to the garden, feeling foolish and even a bit cruel for misleading him.
“It’s too dangerous,” he continued. “I know nothing about you, but I know that colt. I’ve never seen anything like him and he’s not even full grown.”
The Vagabond grinned and shrugged, yet the Patron sensed bitterness as his handsome features tightened for a moment.
But the Vagabond took in a deep breath and let it out with a sigh, and any signs of wrath disappeared.
Then he looked the Patron in the eye with a directness bordering the offensive. He had never seen a destitute meet him as an equal.
“Sounds like that colt is one that’ll choose his master,” the Vagabond said. “Maybe you should just let him go.”
He chuckled then, with a richness that can only come from the belly.
The sound of the young adventurer’s laughter was infectious, yet brought to mind the warnings the Patron had heard all his life about those who follow no law but their own.
He’d always tried to be generous and fair to those restless souls who showed up at his door, most of them diminished to half-starved wretches. The Patron always gave them decent wages and a good meal.
But out of prudence, he never allowed them stay.
“Thief…”
“Never-do-well…causing trouble wherever he goes…”
“Beware the vagabond and send him on his way…”
The litany of cautions echoed in his memory until the Vagabond interrupted.
“I can handle your colt, Patron. And if I’m wrong, then it’s my tragedy. But what do you stand to lose giving me a chance?”
The Power of the Pan
/Then I hurled through the trees to the creek bed where I intruded on the Pan in the F*ck.
That stopped me in my tracks.
The girl was splayed on her back on top of a boulder. Her legs bent at the knees and dropped aside to form the portal of the Divine Harlot, where the Pan gripped her hips with his meaty hands and f*cked her mercilessly.
I could see the outline of taut muscles through his furry thighs as the Pan rolled his pelvis. Her full breasts bounced in rhythm to the beat of the beast thrusting in and out of her. Her lips were black cherry red and her cheeks flushed roses, her pale straw-colored hair streaming around her head.
I had never seen anything more beautiful.
This girl was absolutely exquisite in the F*ck.
From her writhing, moaning bliss, I could tell she was no virgin when she had crossed paths with the Pan. But she might as well have been. Chances were she had never been pummeled like this, and she clearly loved it. She arched her back and gyrated her pelvis while reaching for her peak.
The girl’s flesh quivered, her body quaked as she dove into an explosive climax that consumed her in waves. Shrieking ecstatically, the girl was already begging for more.
What a magnificent little whore. She had to have descended from a nymph.
I was so enthralled with watching her I didn’t realize the Pan was watching me.
His hair was so thick, I could barely make out the horns and flying ears. His beard was the same ruddy chestnut as the hair on his head. His features were brutish, with deep set murky eyes and a blunt nose.
The Pan was still hard when he pulled out of the girl. The sight of that huge, engorged c*ck made the blood drain from my face.
I recoiled.
This was not the way things usually happened with the Pans.
According to all the stories I’ve ever heard, I should have been overcome with a searing lust.
Of course, he noticed.
“Huh,” he muttered.
I backed away from him.
The Pan peered intently into my eyes, tilted his head, and grinned.
“Well, I’ll be damned. You belong to Sappho.”
“What’s that mean?”
Suddenly, I was neither afraid nor repelled.
The Pan chuckled.
“Unless you don’t know who Sappho is, you know exactly what I mean. You like girls.”
As soon as he said it, I knew it was true.
Suddenly, my longing for Adele and her vicious torment made far more sense. She probably suspected that about me, and fed off my yearning to pump her vanity.
The girl pulled herself upright on the boulder, still quivering.
The Pan picked her up by the rump, and she tried to wrap her legs around him. Instead, he set her on the ground, and directed her towards me.
Once she was closer, I noticed she was a few years older than I. Her eyes still bleary from the F*ck, but her gaze cleared and brightened when she saw me.
The girl looked me up and down slowly, and smiled.
It took every bit of self-control I had to hold still. Every part of me wanted to tremble.
Even with her hair tangled and her skin flushed from the F*ck, she looked more like a Madonna than the wanton slut I’d just seen getting pounded and relishing it.
“Oh my,” she said breathlessly, and turned her face to the Pan. “Is she going to join us?”
“Do you want her to?” he asked.
The girl moaned and threw her head back. She had a lovely, long throat and her deep red lips curved in a smile.
“I do,” she murmured. “I want to play with her while you f*ck me.”
I blazed when she said that.
“And then I want to watch while you fuck her.”
I froze.
“I wouldn’t count on that,” the Pan said.
“Why not?”
“Because I don’t think she wants me.”
“How is that possible?”
“Because she wants you,” the Pan replied. “I think she wants you really bad. As bad as you want me so bad you’re dripping for me right now.”
“Really?” the girl murmured, her mossy green eyes intent on me. “If you’re right, maybe I can change her mind.”
I’ve never been at a loss for words at any time in my life before or after that moment. The wetness between my legs made me blush.
The girl giggled at the expression on my face.
“Hello there,” she called out. “I’m Heather. What’s your name?”
I paused, still unable to speak.
“You have a name, don’t you?”
“Dusky.”
“I like that. It’s sexy. Do you like to play with girls, Dusky?”
“I don’t know. I never have.”
“Have you ever messed around with boys?”
“No.”
“So you’re a total virgin?”
I blushed so hard, I thought I’d pass out.
“I guess so. Yeah.”
“How old are you?”
“Sixteen. Most people think I’m older.”
Heather nodded slowly and smiled, as she perused me up and down again.
I had seen that rakish expression before. On the faces of men and boys, that look made my skin crawl.
But coming from a slutty Madonna like Heather, that look made my knees shake.
“Unbelievable,” she muttered. “You have such a strong, womanly body. Do you want me like Pan says you do?”
I nodded before I could stop myself. It was impossible for me in that moment to deny how I felt.
Such was the power of a Pan.
What Happens After One Breaks Free
/I had just turned sixteen the first time I met a Pan.
I was also a virgin at the start of that adventure, and I wasn’t by its end.
But things didn’t go as they usually did, maybe because the Pan was in the middle of the F*ck when I came across him.
I saw him in the deepest parts of the forest. Of course, that’s where I found him.
Most of the stories about Pans took place in the natural wild – in the woods, near rocks and cliffs, beside rivers and creeks, and even under waterfalls.
Where else could Pans feel most comfortable shedding their human forms, to don their animal selves, and let the horny half goat live, breathe, and f*ck?
Autumn was at its peak. Not just the trees, but the foliage exploded with the madness vivid color, so vivid that our home was famous for it.
Tourists from all over the world crowded the more famous forests, leaving the more secretive and private woods known only to the locals.
I was in one of these havens, hiking with the girl I considered my best friend at the time.
Adele was a pretty girl, who I both loved and hated in equal measure. I always yearned for more of her, more of her time, more of her attention than she was willing to give.
My treacherous best friend liked the shape of triangles, especially of the human variety. I rarely had the pleasure of enjoying Adele to myself. There was always another best friend or her boyfriend joining us.
On this particular day, we had gotten an early start to go hiking.
Her new best friend of the moment – and my least favorite – was with us.
Adele insisted Lise was necessary, for although we were all sixteen, Lise was the one who had both a license and a car.
She could take us to the oldest parts of the secret woods, far from the tramp and stomp of oblivious tourists who made our larger forests rather unpleasant this time of year.
Reluctantly, I agreed.
I found her personality close to unbearable, and I didn’t understand what Adele saw in Lise, with her simpering smirks, and a grating voice with an insipid tone that worked on my last nerve.
But like most people, Adele had a case of hidden ugly-nasty, which expressed itself through malice. Girls like Lise were made for that kind of poisonous indulgence.
Since triangles are always two sides against one, it was hardly surprising I was on the outs that morning.
Adele and Lise walked arm in arm, either in front of me or behind me, whispering secrets in each other’s ears, and giggling.
I fumed, which is exactly what they wanted. I even realized that at the time, which made my impotent wrath even more palpable.
The forest saved me that day.
To keep from losing my temper and my dignity, I forced my attention on the beauty around me.
The woods were particularly exquisite.
There had been a recent rain. Leaves, a myriad of golden passion and exploding fire, covered the trees; the ground was resplendent and heavy with ample moisture, along with the warmth of changing color as well.
The powerful softness of morning light highlighted the forest canopy, and the colors were most vivid right after the rains.
I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply through my nostrils. The smoky aroma of autumn permeated the air along with a hint of spice.
I also heard the creek running in the distance. The sound of riotous peace of a waterbed streaming fat with fresh, luscious water brought me back to myself.
As the great-great-granddaughter of a water nymph, this was my favorite element. Water was my savior that gave me strength and power during times of stress.
I opened my eyes again.
I could finally notice the flurry of squirrels, the wing-flap and songs of the birds.
Everything pulsed with life, in this season right before the death of winter.
My heart beat strong inside my breast.
I turned around and faced the not-so-hidden ugly-nasty of Adele and Lise, sniggering at my expense.
The malice gleaming from their eyes was undeniable.
Suddenly, I knew I had been played for a fool to accept the role they gave me.
It was incredible how quickly love-hate dissolved in an instant.
Adele caught on to my indifference immediately. The vicious glee in her face disappeared and her brow furrowed.
If I had possessed less inborn composure, I probably would have laughed out loud. Adele and Lise seemed so dull and ordinary in that moment.
Really, what was I doing with these silly girls? I was borne from magic. I was a descendant of a nymph.
“I’m done,” I said.
“What are you talking about, Dusky?”
“I don’t want to hike with you and Lise anymore. I’m going my own way.”
“Are you nuts?” protested Lise. “We’re more than an hour’s drive from town.”
“Then I’ll be home by nightfall.”
I took off at a violent run.
I became giddy with each stride that took me away from them.
The delirious freedom borne from liberating myself from invisible shackles that rendered me powerless only because I had allowed it to be so.
Adele and Lise didn’t bother chasing after me, because what was the point of futility?
My father was tall and lean, with far more physical power in his physique than his appearance implied. I took after my father in that way.
I was several inches taller than Adele, with longer, stronger limbs. There was no way either she or Lise could keep up, much less catch me.
They shrieked after my departing back.
I didn’t hear all of what Adele said, something innocuous like calling her when I got home.
The euphoria of freedom kept me running hard for nearly twenty minutes.
The forest was a blur of green, while leaping over rocks, cracking twigs, and the earthy spice in the air.
Then I hurled through the trees to the creek bed where I intruded on the Pan in the F*ck.
Memes and More Memes!
/Hey y’all,
As I said in an earlier post, I got to making lots of memes to promote my existence here in this world and in cyber space. I think Cole and I came up with some pretty awesome images, and thought it would be cool to share some of our collection in the blog.
These memes are original in the pairings of images with words. Many of the quotes are from those who are wiser and more experienced than I - not to mention famous. Unless the author is unknown, I always credit brilliance where it is due. And of course, I didn't take the pictures. But many are quotes from my work, and in one meme, my perspective.
These are some favorites of mine as well as those pinned often on Pinterest. I don’t know how all of this will shake out, but for the sake of passing on some good advice, I recommend Canva as a great place to design memes for free. My second choice is Quotes Cover, which is where I got started. I was pretty limited with how I could design the image and where I could put words on Quotes Cover. I think Canva makes a cleaner, more pristine image, so I use it all the time now. But I had to figure it out and have somebody show me a little of how to work that site. Both sites are free to work with, which is always a bonus. That said, I hope y’all enjoy the images and feel free to share them on your own social media – especially those that have Free Flying Press on them. ;)
So there y'all have it. There are many more. I hope y'all enjoyed viewing these as much as we did making them! It's a lovely creative pursuit to make some memes!
Peace,
Montgomery